I would venture to say that learning to love myself enough to BE myself, has been my biggest challenge in this lifetime. The aha moments when I remember this truth are quite emotional for me. This truth, which is obvious to some, remained oblivious to me many times as I have traveled through this life. Self-sabotage has come easy to me., I can get scared when things are calm a.d there is no drama. I can stir the pot and create crisis quite quickly. And in reflection, I am also capable of creating the most beautiful experiences.
The creation of my sprout growing business, Living Greens, was meant to be part of my life. From the moment I first read the article on sprouting, until I closed the doors in 2002, I lived and breathed healthy food and teaching classes on healthy eating and raw food preparation. It was my passion. I continue to grow sprouts at my kitchen sink all the time., and wish that others will do the same in their home.
And now I have a new passion in the healing modalities. I have only been applying the HGH gel since late February and continue to feel better. So, in the 3 months that I have been using the HGH homeopathic gel with botanical support of the adrenals and thyroid, I am thrilled to report that I sleep quite soundly every night. No longer do I have to get up at night to use the bathroom. I seem to fall asleep quickly and usually dream. My digestion has greatly improved., no more bloating and gas. My skin is soft, becoming more resilient. My muscle tone is improving and my muscles have more density without me going to the gym. I have more energy during the day. Most of all, I feel at peace about everything. My anxiety is so greatly diminished because I am receiving sound sleep nightly, enabling my body to rest and repair. Go right here to try a bottle yourself.
I ran into the son of a friend last week. That encounter led to more interactions with several other local residence of my small home town. I received the gift of acupuncture that evening and the needling definitely opened my heart space. I cried tears of joy.
Life becomes amazing when we allow God to create through us. As we recognize, acknowledge and honor our God spark, we become creative beings, shining our light.
I have always believed in energy and how we attract experiences into our life. Not that we attract certain situations, but, that situations manifest to teach us lessons or guide us down our path. If we ask for guidance, then pay attention to what happens by in our daily lives; we are often presented with opportunities, people, etc. that seem to answer our asking.
To be honest, moving back to where I was born surprised me. I am enjoying being here, but, physically working 30 hours a week until I take my last breath is not my idea of retirement or a life I envisioned when I was growing sprouts in my backyard. So, as I was settling into my new apartment and job, I was also asking for a way to feel better. My health seemed not up to par., problems with digestion, energy and ambition and my low back was a constant issue. I was up every night to go to the bathroom and my sleep was not deep and restful. I needed help if I was to outlive my parents passing at 91, and fulfill my purpose on earth.
When scrolling thru Facebook one day in January, I was attracted to a post by a raw food chef/facebook friend, and I private messaged her for more information about this amazing gel that she had been using for the past 6 months and the changes it had made in her life. After researching the product and listening to others share their results, I became a member of the tribe, so to speak. On the 14th of February, I gifted myself this gel and I am so overjoyed that I did.
The first night that I used the gel, I slept through the night without getting up. And it has been that way ever since. I have also been remembering some of my dreams. I wake feeling rested and ready to go. My digestion is changing also with not so much bloating and gas. My nails are stronger and I feel stronger in my muscles. The biggest change has been the sense of peace. My anxiety has been reduced. I want to share this wonderful gel with everyone over the age of 30!
It contains human growth hormone (HGH) along with botanical support for our adrenal glands and thyroid. I have read that it has its own intelligence, thus acting where it is needed most throughout the body. I know I desperately needed better sleep, and that was the first improvement in my life.
I love that I found this beautiful group of like-minded souls to hang out with online. We are helping improve the quality of peoples lives daily, both with health and wealth, just by adding the application of a gel several times a day. Amazingly, this gathering of people are those that often times think outside of the box. Have been or still are in the healing arts as life coaches, raw chefs, Chinese medicine practitioners, massage therapists. They are seekers of peace and harmony on the earth. People of integrity.
If you think you might like to be part of our tribe, use the gel and feel amazing, send me a private message on Facebook, or look at my website and join me right here.
I have returned to my place of birth. It is rather funny, I am living in the same apartment building I left in the fall of 2016, only this time it is a bigger apartment and I have a balcony where I can have some flowers and veggies this summer. The move went very smoothly., a short visit north of Atlanta with my daughter and granddaughter, then a friend in North Carolina and then home to Butler, PA. I stayed with my daughter, Julia, and her family for almost a month before I found a job and an apartment.
It feels good to be home. Working at the local grocery store allows me the opportunity to run into folks that I know from growing up here. I am enjoying being busy. Looking for the necessary furnishings, happy to have my own place again.
Spring is around the corner, I will do some container gardening on my small balcony. It is the northern exposure, not sure if the sun will come far enough north to shine on it or if I will rely on the eastern and western sun. Time will tell.
saying anything out loud always makes it more real to me., so, I am stating out loud: I am vacating this property before Thanksgiving.
My dear friend from Malabar, (I thought we would be going into business together) came for a visit last week. We dug up a fig tree, jackfruit, plantain babies, a rosemary bush and lots of dragonfruit. She will plant them all on her property and they will thrive and grow. And she will send me photos of them.
As for me…
I am returning to Pennsylvania. I will be less than 5 miles from my younger daughter and 2 grandsons. My siblings are in a 40 mile distance of there. My older daughter and granddaughter will be a days drive away.
Prioritizing in life sometimes requires change. My children and grandchildren are #1. I have always believed that home is where your heart is. My heart is NOT here, in central Florida. I miss my family. I’m going home.
Sometimes a new path can lead you back to where you started with more wisdom, clarity and focus.
I will NOT stay on this property and grow food after all. The universe seems to be sending me back closer to the ocean.
I have been busy putting together a small automatic sprouting system which will be easy for folks to put together to grow their own sprouts and microgreens. And, I will be joining forces with one of my dearest friends to cater raw, living foods on a weekly basis to like minded souls. Both of these pursuits are what we enjoy doing., and in the future, we will offer classes.
Ever since hurricane Irma came thru central Florida, I have been neglectful of continuing work on this property. One reason was that John had announced that he was going to sell this place. That statement put me in a “flight or fight” mode., I also became depressed. I continue to have visions of what this property will look like in years to come, and I can’t seem to find the enthusiasm of purchasing a trailer to tow around the country.
The truth is, we, as a people, need to learn sustainable skills for building, cleaning water and becoming off grid inhabitants of our dear Mother Earth. And I know my life purpose is to teach some of those skills and hold workshops where other teachers can share their expertise.
So, I’m moving! My intention is to continue to make this property my home while I look at available land for sale farther north. My energy is no longer about growing anything here besides sprouts and greens. I will be exploring ways to purchase property myself, and create my homestead with sustainable skills., solar panels and a windmill perhaps. A good well for water, and all the other necessities of life.
We all get lost sometimes. I am happy that I decided to listen to my intuitive ‘self’ and do what I love. Stay tuned.
let the truth be told., I will most likely be leaving this property in a year or so., the owner seems intent to sell. or, he is conflicted with my making this space my home. No matter, I will be transferring my energy away from this property and concentrating on manifesting a vintage camper that has a bathroom., i imagine 16+ feet in length. I have visions of traveling to Colorado, Oregon and perhaps California to explore their laws concerning medical marijuana and the availability of it to the public.
I also look at this as an opportunity to write my book about my journey and how living a life of accountability and compassion for others can impact your own life.
So, anyone., that has a decent camper, 16 to 18 ft with a bathroom including shower., contact me. i am interested.
I thought I knew where I was going to take my last breath… that i would live the remainder of my life growing a food forest of tropical fruit trees and edible greens in raised beds. That might not be what will transpire unless i decide that i would like to start a non profit which focuses on growing tropical fruit trees and raised bed gardens of fresh greens and local food. the owner of this property has it in his head that he needs to add bandaids to the problems that abound, and get as much as he can with putting in as little as he can to cover up the problems.
how does one live with oneself knowing that you are taking advantage of another?
Chances are you have experienced change in your life., some expected,
some not. It seems to be the only consistent thing we can count on in our lives., so why do we often hear from folks how much they hate it?
It can be scary when you first decide to make some changes. Most likely, if you are improving on a daily routine or eliminating some habit that you are not pleased with, it can get downright uncomfortable. Sometimes, so much so, that the fear holds you back.
When I was much younger, I seemed to thrive on change. It was exciting to take on an adventure such as moving to another city or state .At the age of 26, I made the decision to move my older daughter and myself from PA to FL, purchasing a one way ticket to fly away from my birth family and most everyone I knew growing up. I never looked back with regret or questioned the move. Somehow, inside, I knew it was leading me to something I needed to learn.
My world transpired throughout the eastern side of this country., I was raised in a small town in midwestern Pennsylvania, then, basically moved in a triangle of sorts between there, the east coast of Florida and the Atlanta, Georgia area. I am now living in Central Florida, in a very small community.
While each of these locations were instrumental in my professional life, I was a somewhat different professional in each location. I traveled in that circle several times from the age of 19 until today, almost 50 years later.
What I am acknowledging as I sit and type this post, is that throughout my professional life of facilitating healing for others., it was me, that needed each modality that I studied and shared. I needed to eat healthier., so I learned about and shared what I learned by growing sprouts and having the organic market & kitchen. I was a licensed massage therapist because I needed to be touched in a safe & healing way. And I studied colon hydrotherapy because I wanted to heal my own digestion and help others heal theirs.
I believe healing ourselves happens when we ask for guidance., then, pay attention for the lessons to be learned, or the opportunity to arrive, or the teacher / facilitator to appear. It is then, as I, myself, have learned, that ‘taking action’ is the most important step. Thus, the intention of this post.
During this past year, since I moved south again., I have experienced many periods of fear and procrastination. Especially about posting to my blog and more importantly, directing traffic to my blog. I have placed a link on my fan page on Facebook, but, I have not posted on the page to direct people to get a free copy of my ebook on sprouting and how I manifested that life. I was not sure why. Something told me it had to do with my emotional ‘self’ and there was more healing to do. I needed to truly love myself and recognize the old tapes for what they were, old tapes. So, I asked for help. And then I listened to what the Universe presented to me.
This past week, an online friend, Trisha Barnes , of The Naked Hippies Way started working with me via a video call. Energetically, we shifted some limiting beliefs that I was operating from to a higher vibration, loving belief. I gave myself two action steps: The first is posting to this blog on a weekly basis and sharing it to social media. My second action step is to do something outside in the gardening arena. (with 1 3/4 acres there is always a project, even if it is mowing the grass!)
My first week was up Tuesday morning and I started this post last night on my birthday. But I was lead to save the draft until today. Why? Perhaps because when I posted the fortune cookie on my page questioning procrastination, another friend responded that sometimes it’s not about fear of success but rather a lack of clarity in the direction to go. Well…
This morning, I went online to Facebook and was attracted to a post by Kyle Cease. After watching several of his videos on youtube, I know that he is another teacher that just showed up. Why? Because his 2 hour daily meditation challenge is perfect for my 2nd action step which is spending time daily in my garden, creating. There is where I will be doing the meditation challenge while I direct energy into my garden & fruit trees.
I’m really tickled by this whole series of vibrational alignment that is happening. Especially because that just means I have been paying attention. And I’m ready for whatever the future brings. After all, I am the one directing the show, right?
So, if you want to follow along as I get vulnerable, or if you want to get my ebook on sprouting and how I manifested that part of my journey, leave your email in the box to the right somewhere. Then, check your email for the link to my ebook.
for most of my memorable life, I have had an active mind., always busy. my dad once told me that I think too much. I am guilty. I do. and it can be repetitive. (which to me, is a bad thing.)
in my early twenties, I went to a talk about Transcendental Meditation and at the end was given a mantra and sent on my way… I remember my mantra, but, can not profess to sit in meditation and use that mantra.
several months back, I came across this video of a Tibetan Monk who talks about the monkey mind., all the chatter…
have a listen, it has made meditation easier for me.