I have returned to my place of birth. It is rather funny, I am living in the same apartment building I left in the fall of 2016, only this time it is a bigger apartment and I have a balcony where I can have some flowers and veggies this summer. The move went very smoothly., a short visit north of Atlanta with my daughter and granddaughter, then a friend in North Carolina and then home to Butler, PA. I stayed with my daughter, Julia, and her family for almost a month before I found a job and an apartment.
It feels good to be home. Working at the local grocery store allows me the opportunity to run into folks that I know from growing up here. I am enjoying being busy. Looking for the necessary furnishings, happy to have my own place again.
Spring is around the corner, I will do some container gardening on my small balcony. It is the northern exposure, not sure if the sun will come far enough north to shine on it or if I will rely on the eastern and western sun. Time will tell.
saying anything out loud always makes it more real to me., so, I am stating out loud: I am vacating this property before Thanksgiving.
My dear friend from Malabar, (I thought we would be going into business together) came for a visit last week. We dug up a fig tree, jackfruit, plantain babies, a rosemary bush and lots of dragonfruit. She will plant them all on her property and they will thrive and grow. And she will send me photos of them.
As for me…
I am returning to Pennsylvania. I will be less than 5 miles from my younger daughter and 2 grandsons. My siblings are in a 40 mile distance of there. My older daughter and granddaughter will be a days drive away.
Prioritizing in life sometimes requires change. My children and grandchildren are #1. I have always believed that home is where your heart is. My heart is NOT here, in central Florida. I miss my family. I’m going home.
Sometimes a new path can lead you back to where you started with more wisdom, clarity and focus.
I will NOT stay on this property and grow food after all. The universe seems to be sending me back closer to the ocean.
I have been busy putting together a small automatic sprouting system which will be easy for folks to put together to grow their own sprouts and microgreens. And, I will be joining forces with one of my dearest friends to cater raw, living foods on a weekly basis to like minded souls. Both of these pursuits are what we enjoy doing., and in the future, we will offer classes.
Ever since hurricane Irma came thru central Florida, I have been neglectful of continuing work on this property. One reason was that John had announced that he was going to sell this place. That statement put me in a “flight or fight” mode., I also became depressed. I continue to have visions of what this property will look like in years to come, and I can’t seem to find the enthusiasm of purchasing a trailer to tow around the country.
The truth is, we, as a people, need to learn sustainable skills for building, cleaning water and becoming off grid inhabitants of our dear Mother Earth. And I know my life purpose is to teach some of those skills and hold workshops where other teachers can share their expertise.
So, I’m moving! My intention is to continue to make this property my home while I look at available land for sale farther north. My energy is no longer about growing anything here besides sprouts and greens. I will be exploring ways to purchase property myself, and create my homestead with sustainable skills., solar panels and a windmill perhaps. A good well for water, and all the other necessities of life.
We all get lost sometimes. I am happy that I decided to listen to my intuitive ‘self’ and do what I love. Stay tuned.
let the truth be told., I will most likely be leaving this property in a year or so., the owner seems intent to sell. or, he is conflicted with my making this space my home. No matter, I will be transferring my energy away from this property and concentrating on manifesting a vintage camper that has a bathroom., i imagine 16+ feet in length. I have visions of traveling to Colorado, Oregon and perhaps California to explore their laws concerning medical marijuana and the availability of it to the public.
I also look at this as an opportunity to write my book about my journey and how living a life of accountability and compassion for others can impact your own life.
So, anyone., that has a decent camper, 16 to 18 ft with a bathroom including shower., contact me. i am interested.
I thought I knew where I was going to take my last breath… that i would live the remainder of my life growing a food forest of tropical fruit trees and edible greens in raised beds. That might not be what will transpire unless i decide that i would like to start a non profit which focuses on growing tropical fruit trees and raised bed gardens of fresh greens and local food. the owner of this property has it in his head that he needs to add bandaids to the problems that abound, and get as much as he can with putting in as little as he can to cover up the problems.
how does one live with oneself knowing that you are taking advantage of another?
Chances are you have experienced change in your life., some expected,
some not. It seems to be the only consistent thing we can count on in our lives., so why do we often hear from folks how much they hate it?
It can be scary when you first decide to make some changes. Most likely, if you are improving on a daily routine or eliminating some habit that you are not pleased with, it can get downright uncomfortable. Sometimes, so much so, that the fear holds you back.
When I was much younger, I seemed to thrive on change. It was exciting to take on an adventure such as moving to another city or state .At the age of 26, I made the decision to move my older daughter and myself from PA to FL, purchasing a one way ticket to fly away from my birth family and most everyone I knew growing up. I never looked back with regret or questioned the move. Somehow, inside, I knew it was leading me to something I needed to learn.
My world transpired throughout the eastern side of this country., I was raised in a small town in midwestern Pennsylvania, then, basically moved in a triangle of sorts between there, the east coast of Florida and the Atlanta, Georgia area. I am now living in Central Florida, in a very small community.
While each of these locations were instrumental in my professional life, I was a somewhat different professional in each location. I traveled in that circle several times from the age of 19 until today, almost 50 years later.
What I am acknowledging as I sit and type this post, is that throughout my professional life of facilitating healing for others., it was me, that needed each modality that I studied and shared. I needed to eat healthier., so I learned about and shared what I learned by growing sprouts and having the organic market & kitchen. I was a licensed massage therapist because I needed to be touched in a safe & healing way. And I studied colon hydrotherapy because I wanted to heal my own digestion and help others heal theirs.
I believe healing ourselves happens when we ask for guidance., then, pay attention for the lessons to be learned, or the opportunity to arrive, or the teacher / facilitator to appear. It is then, as I, myself, have learned, that ‘taking action’ is the most important step. Thus, the intention of this post.
During this past year, since I moved south again., I have experienced many periods of fear and procrastination. Especially about posting to my blog and more importantly, directing traffic to my blog. I have placed a link on my fan page on Facebook, but, I have not posted on the page to direct people to get a free copy of my ebook on sprouting and how I manifested that life. I was not sure why. Something told me it had to do with my emotional ‘self’ and there was more healing to do. I needed to truly love myself and recognize the old tapes for what they were, old tapes. So, I asked for help. And then I listened to what the Universe presented to me.
This past week, an online friend, Trisha Barnes , of The Naked Hippies Way started working with me via a video call. Energetically, we shifted some limiting beliefs that I was operating from to a higher vibration, loving belief. I gave myself two action steps: The first is posting to this blog on a weekly basis and sharing it to social media. My second action step is to do something outside in the gardening arena. (with 1 3/4 acres there is always a project, even if it is mowing the grass!)
My first week was up Tuesday morning and I started this post last night on my birthday. But I was lead to save the draft until today. Why? Perhaps because when I posted the fortune cookie on my page questioning procrastination, another friend responded that sometimes it’s not about fear of success but rather a lack of clarity in the direction to go. Well…
This morning, I went online to Facebook and was attracted to a post by Kyle Cease. After watching several of his videos on youtube, I know that he is another teacher that just showed up. Why? Because his 2 hour daily meditation challenge is perfect for my 2nd action step which is spending time daily in my garden, creating. There is where I will be doing the meditation challenge while I direct energy into my garden & fruit trees.
I’m really tickled by this whole series of vibrational alignment that is happening. Especially because that just means I have been paying attention. And I’m ready for whatever the future brings. After all, I am the one directing the show, right?
So, if you want to follow along as I get vulnerable, or if you want to get my ebook on sprouting and how I manifested that part of my journey, leave your email in the box to the right somewhere. Then, check your email for the link to my ebook.
for most of my memorable life, I have had an active mind., always busy. my dad once told me that I think too much. I am guilty. I do. and it can be repetitive. (which to me, is a bad thing.)
in my early twenties, I went to a talk about Transcendental Meditation and at the end was given a mantra and sent on my way… I remember my mantra, but, can not profess to sit in meditation and use that mantra.
several months back, I came across this video of a Tibetan Monk who talks about the monkey mind., all the chatter…
have a listen, it has made meditation easier for me.
I’m amazed at how quickly the dragon fruit are growing. This morning I added 1/2 of a purple dragon fruit that I had found at the store into my green smoothie. This is what it looked like. It was delicious, with a gazillion little seeds. Wondering when my little wall of dragon fruit will begin to bear their own fruit?
It has been a month since I began creating the bed for the dragon fruit, placed the posts and planted 12 stalks., 4 each of white, pink & red. They have been sprouting new stalks, at least a dozen or more so far.
This morning, I finished placing the border of concrete blocks and added more soil and mulch. As they spread, I envision having a wall of dragon fruit climbing the posts and cascading over the trellis which forms the wall.