change is full of choices… I’m choosing to be vulnerable

Chances are you have experienced change in your life., some expected,

OM…

some not. It seems to be the only consistent thing we can count on in our lives., so why do we often hear from folks how much they hate it?

It can be scary when you first decide to make some changes. Most likely, if you are improving on a daily routine or eliminating some habit that you are not pleased with, it can get downright uncomfortable. Sometimes, so much so, that the fear holds you back.

When I was much younger, I seemed to thrive on change. It was exciting to take on an adventure such as moving to another city or state .At the age of 26, I made the decision to move my older daughter and myself from PA to FL, purchasing a one way ticket to fly away from my birth family and most everyone I knew growing up. I never looked back with regret or questioned the move. Somehow, inside, I knew it was leading me to something I needed to learn.

My world transpired throughout the eastern side of this country., I was raised in a small town in midwestern Pennsylvania, then, basically moved in a triangle of sorts between there, the east coast of Florida and the Atlanta, Georgia area. I am now living in Central Florida, in a very small community.

While each of these locations were instrumental in my professional life, I was a somewhat different professional in each location. I traveled in that circle several times from the age of 19 until today, almost 50 years later.

What I am acknowledging as I sit and type this post, is that throughout my professional life of facilitating healing for others., it was me, that needed each modality that I studied and shared. I needed to eat healthier., so I learned about and shared what I learned by growing sprouts and having the organic market & kitchen. I was a licensed massage therapist because I needed to be touched in a safe & healing way. And I studied colon hydrotherapy because I wanted to heal my own digestion and help others heal theirs.

I believe healing ourselves happens when we ask for guidance., then, pay attention for the lessons to be learned, or the opportunity to arrive, or the teacher / facilitator to appear. It is then, as I, myself, have learned,  that ‘taking action’ is the most important step. Thus, the intention of this post.

is this true?

During this past year, since I moved south again., I have experienced many periods of fear and procrastination. Especially about posting to my blog and more importantly, directing traffic to my blog. I have placed a link on my fan page on Facebook, but, I have not posted on the page to direct people to get a free copy of my ebook  on sprouting and how I manifested that life. I was not sure why. Something told me it had to do with my emotional ‘self’ and there was more healing to do. I needed to truly love myself and recognize the old tapes for what they were, old tapes. So, I asked for help. And then I listened to what the Universe presented to me.

This past week, an online friend, Trisha Barnes , of The Naked Hippies Way started working with me via a video call. Energetically, we shifted some limiting beliefs that I was operating from to a higher vibration, loving belief. I gave myself two action steps:  The first is posting to this blog on a weekly basis and sharing it to social media. My second action step is to do something outside in the gardening arena. (with 1 3/4 acres there is always a project, even if it is mowing the grass!)

My first week was up Tuesday morning and I started this post last night on my birthday. But I was lead to save the draft until today. Why? Perhaps because when I posted the fortune cookie on my page questioning procrastination, another friend responded that sometimes it’s not about fear of success but rather a lack of clarity in the direction to go. Well…

This morning, I went online to Facebook and was attracted to a post by Kyle Cease. After watching several of his videos on youtube, I know that he is another teacher that just showed up. Why? Because his 2 hour daily meditation challenge is perfect for my 2nd action step which is spending time daily in my garden, creating. There is where I will be doing the meditation challenge while I direct energy into my garden & fruit trees.

I’m really tickled by this whole series of vibrational alignment  that is happening. Especially because that just means I have been paying attention. And I’m ready for whatever the future brings. After all, I am the one directing the show, right?

So, if you want to follow along as I get vulnerable, or if you want to get my ebook on sprouting and how I manifested that part of my journey, leave your email in the box to the right somewhere. Then, check your email for the link to my ebook.

Blessings appear when we pay attention. Are you?

 

 

and the garden continues to grow…

I’m amazed at how quickly the dragon fruit are growing. This morning I added 1/2 of a purple dragon fruit that I had found at the store into my green smoothie.  This is what it looked like. It was delicious, with a gazillion little seeds. Wondering when my little wall of dragon fruit will begin to bear their own fruit?

purple dragon fruit smoothie with cactus.

the dragon fruit are growing…

It has been a month since I began creating the bed for the dragon fruit, placed the posts and planted 12 stalks., 4 each of white, pink & red. They have been sprouting new stalks, at least a dozen or more so far.

dragon fruit

This morning, I finished placing the border of concrete blocks and added more soil and mulch. As they spread, I envision having a wall of dragon fruit climbing the posts and cascading over the trellis which forms the wall.

watching nature come alive, intentions grow…

having completed my patio project., I started planting in the raised beds that now border the patio. In the center of the windows., I chose to place 2 plumeria that were here when I arrived in October, but, they were dormant. One was root bound in a pot, the other had no roots, just a stalk with several branches. They are both producing leaves and one has 2 clusters of blossoms coming.

I patiently await their opening to reveal their color to me. Already, I smell them in my memories of when they lined the entrance to my market in Merritt Island, FL. 15 years ago. They were a lovely welcoming to me. Their fragrance is divine.

progress feels good to the soul…

It’s almost two weeks since I showed any progress on my many projects around the property. Over this time, I reconnected with a friend from my past of 35 years ago. There has been much reflection on where I was in my life’s journey then., a rather low point that I am grateful I left behind me. There is a reason why we reconnected, some healing needed to be done between us. That, too, will come. But, I’m here now, ready to share the progress that I made over this weekend.

My neighbor up the road, Gary, purchased 5 acres last year and has been planting fruit trees ever since. He was one of the first neighbors I sought out. I wanted what he had., FRUIT TREES.

So far, sweet Gary has given me 4 baby jack fruit trees (they may stay in pots for another year), an avocado and 12 dragon fruit cactus.

placement of posts for dragon fruit

Today, I placed 2 of my  4 x 4 posts in the ground. I will place another tomorrow, perhaps,along with preparing the compost and soil to ready for planting.

First on my agenda will be learning to patch a tire for my favorite green wagon. Should that go well, I can complete my pole hole digging.

I am absolutely tickled about his gift of all these different fruits. To me, this is validation that my decision to move here and begin this next chapter of my life is a good one. With purpose and intention I asked for direction as I always have throughout my life. And the desire to live in a quiet place where I could grow food manifested in my life.

What is it you want in your life? Have you paid attention after asking, so as to catch the teacher or facilitator or lesson showing up to lead you in the right direction? Have you tuned in to intuitive self and trusted yourself to make the right decision lately?

 

completing a project., continuing to grow…

Over my life, I recognize that it’s best to be productive when I feel out of sorts or overwhelmed. Because I spent much of my youth quite busy with my sprout growing business, it can be challenging for me to do nothing sometimes. During those periods of nothingness., I usually ask what it is I could possibly be doing next, then pay attention to what comes around.

looking west

I have been busy completing my patio on the south side of the property. I like it. It is by no means perfect, but, what is? I’ve gathered the beginnings of plants for the raised beds surrounding the patio. This area will face south. I have been planting trees and will be adding a row of dragonfruit after I plant the 4×4 posts they will grow up. This future southern fruit forest will provide privacy to the patio, with an eventual abundance of fresh fruit. I’ve tucked herbs around the aloe.

Now the nurturing begins…

south view
gazing east

where I ended the day with my herb bed…

I enjoyed the process of creating a herb bed beside my new patio today. Beginning the task, I dug up and removed the grass and roots. Then, I built the border with the same small pavers that built the patio. I stood them on edge and made a slightly elevated wall. The plantings of aloe rosemary and lavender will eventually fill this bed., but, for now, I will be adding some other things to fill the space as the featured plants grow.

 

creating a herb bed today…

The south yard started out quite dismal., the first thing that had to be done was remove the broken down hot tub and relocate the square pavers so I could turn them into a patio. That was accomplished several weeks ago. Although I have not completed the patio, I wanted to get some plants into a bed as soon as possible. So, today, I am planting a rosemary, aloe and lavender plants on the east side of the patio. Of course, there will be AFTER photos when I am done.

future herb bed
south yard BEFORE photo 

the journey begins…

I relocated to Central Florida in the beginning of October, 2016. A friend from the 1980’s had offered me a place to stay in exchange for taking care of the property. There is close to 1 3/4 acres with a 2 bedroom house in need of some TLC. My main goal will be homesteading the land with tropical fruit trees, herbs, berries and raised bed gardens. I will also be helping do repairs around the house. For the first several months, I cleaned the main living area of the house and began removing clutter, then painted the kitchen, dining & living areas. As the weather got warmer, I moved outside.

So far, I have 4 Jackfruit saplings, a mango and some banana trees to plant. Last week, I planted my first tree, a Brown Turkey Fig.

Brown Turkey Fig

This journey begins as spring comes around. The layout of my gardens & trees will come as I spend time in the outdoors. This blog will permit me to share what I am learning as I go along. Most of my sprout growing has been in water since  I closed my business. I have not had a yard to play in, so, moving into the world of composting again will be welcoming. There is plenty of space to set up a small greenhouse structure for growing sprouts & baby greens. Most likely, I will extend the east facing screen porch and grow greens there.

Can you tell?  I would love to live here for the next 30+ years.