change is full of choices… I’m choosing to be vulnerable

Chances are you have experienced change in your life., some expected,

OM…

some not. It seems to be the only consistent thing we can count on in our lives., so why do we often hear from folks how much they hate it?

It can be scary when you first decide to make some changes. Most likely, if you are improving on a daily routine or eliminating some habit that you are not pleased with, it can get downright uncomfortable. Sometimes, so much so, that the fear holds you back.

When I was much younger, I seemed to thrive on change. It was exciting to take on an adventure such as moving to another city or state .At the age of 26, I made the decision to move my older daughter and myself from PA to FL, purchasing a one way ticket to fly away from my birth family and most everyone I knew growing up. I never looked back with regret or questioned the move. Somehow, inside, I knew it was leading me to something I needed to learn.

My world transpired throughout the eastern side of this country., I was raised in a small town in midwestern Pennsylvania, then, basically moved in a triangle of sorts between there, the east coast of Florida and the Atlanta, Georgia area. I am now living in Central Florida, in a very small community.

While each of these locations were instrumental in my professional life, I was a somewhat different professional in each location. I traveled in that circle several times from the age of 19 until today, almost 50 years later.

What I am acknowledging as I sit and type this post, is that throughout my professional life of facilitating healing for others., it was me, that needed each modality that I studied and shared. I needed to eat healthier., so I learned about and shared what I learned by growing sprouts and having the organic market & kitchen. I was a licensed massage therapist because I needed to be touched in a safe & healing way. And I studied colon hydrotherapy because I wanted to heal my own digestion and help others heal theirs.

I believe healing ourselves happens when we ask for guidance., then, pay attention for the lessons to be learned, or the opportunity to arrive, or the teacher / facilitator to appear. It is then, as I, myself, have learned,  that ‘taking action’ is the most important step. Thus, the intention of this post.

is this true?

During this past year, since I moved south again., I have experienced many periods of fear and procrastination. Especially about posting to my blog and more importantly, directing traffic to my blog. I have placed a link on my fan page on Facebook, but, I have not posted on the page to direct people to get a free copy of my ebook  on sprouting and how I manifested that life. I was not sure why. Something told me it had to do with my emotional ‘self’ and there was more healing to do. I needed to truly love myself and recognize the old tapes for what they were, old tapes. So, I asked for help. And then I listened to what the Universe presented to me.

This past week, an online friend, Trisha Barnes , of The Naked Hippies Way started working with me via a video call. Energetically, we shifted some limiting beliefs that I was operating from to a higher vibration, loving belief. I gave myself two action steps:  The first is posting to this blog on a weekly basis and sharing it to social media. My second action step is to do something outside in the gardening arena. (with 1 3/4 acres there is always a project, even if it is mowing the grass!)

My first week was up Tuesday morning and I started this post last night on my birthday. But I was lead to save the draft until today. Why? Perhaps because when I posted the fortune cookie on my page questioning procrastination, another friend responded that sometimes it’s not about fear of success but rather a lack of clarity in the direction to go. Well…

This morning, I went online to Facebook and was attracted to a post by Kyle Cease. After watching several of his videos on youtube, I know that he is another teacher that just showed up. Why? Because his 2 hour daily meditation challenge is perfect for my 2nd action step which is spending time daily in my garden, creating. There is where I will be doing the meditation challenge while I direct energy into my garden & fruit trees.

I’m really tickled by this whole series of vibrational alignment  that is happening. Especially because that just means I have been paying attention. And I’m ready for whatever the future brings. After all, I am the one directing the show, right?

So, if you want to follow along as I get vulnerable, or if you want to get my ebook on sprouting and how I manifested that part of my journey, leave your email in the box to the right somewhere. Then, check your email for the link to my ebook.

Blessings appear when we pay attention. Are you?

 

 

the journey begins…

I relocated to Central Florida in the beginning of October, 2016. A friend from the 1980’s had offered me a place to stay in exchange for taking care of the property. There is close to 1 3/4 acres with a 2 bedroom house in need of some TLC. My main goal will be homesteading the land with tropical fruit trees, herbs, berries and raised bed gardens. I will also be helping do repairs around the house. For the first several months, I cleaned the main living area of the house and began removing clutter, then painted the kitchen, dining & living areas. As the weather got warmer, I moved outside.

So far, I have 4 Jackfruit saplings, a mango and some banana trees to plant. Last week, I planted my first tree, a Brown Turkey Fig.

Brown Turkey Fig

This journey begins as spring comes around. The layout of my gardens & trees will come as I spend time in the outdoors. This blog will permit me to share what I am learning as I go along. Most of my sprout growing has been in water since  I closed my business. I have not had a yard to play in, so, moving into the world of composting again will be welcoming. There is plenty of space to set up a small greenhouse structure for growing sprouts & baby greens. Most likely, I will extend the east facing screen porch and grow greens there.

Can you tell?  I would love to live here for the next 30+ years.